I like having a plan.

Yet, so often my plans don’t work out.  I think this is God’s grace in disguise.

This blog is happening because over a year ago now, I thought I had a good plan in place but at the last minute, it didn’t work out.

It was September and I was enrolled at a college I really loved, in a program I was really excited about.

It’s a long story so I’ll just say that a piece of mail changed all of my plans. I didn’t end up going back to school that year.

It was a hard season. My 30th birthday was looming in the near future and some other difficult things happened that year. That hard season was a storm in which God would use powerfully in my life to bring focus, clarity and to teach me more about what it means to walk with God. Even though it left me feeling so lost, confused, frustrated and broken, God showed me that His plans are higher than mine.

I will always remember that year for being the year I learned to bring my feelings and emotions to God through prayer for it felt like I had nowhere else to turn to. It was an unexpected opportunity to get first things first. My priority this past year was to learn to have a regular, consistent time each day to pray and read my Bible.  Even though I still have bad days and weeks, God’s word is living and active and it changes everything. Though that, I have experienced a new contentment and a new desire to walk in the freedom Christ died to bring me.

This brings us to the purpose of this blog. I thought freedom was the ability to do whatever I wanted but I’m learning true freedom is wanting to do the things that won’t enslave me, rather fill me with true life. The thing I feel called to focus on this year is learning how to eat healthy and lose weight. Food has been the biggest stronghold in my life. For many years I have used food as way to deal with life, the good and the bad. I haven’t had any self-control or discipline in this area. This has led me to enslavement; and many feelings of discouragement, frustration and regret. It is area the Enemy has used in my life to steal and destroy and kill and now more than ever, I want to experience more of the abundant life Jesus offers. (John 10:10)

God’s timing is amazing though. I really believe God has used this past year or so to prepare me emotionally and spiritually to be able to fight this battle.

I’m not taking this journey to become a better person, for I will always be far from perfect. I want to take this journey because I love Jesus and I believe He can fill all my emptiness and He can heal all my brokenness. If I constantly turn to food and other things for my joy, comfort, peace and fulfilment; then I will cut myself off from the true source of those things.

This journey will be less about counting calories, and more about learning how to enjoy food in a healthy way that honours God. Food is not bad; it is a good gift to be enjoyed as long as it is used in a good way. I want this to be about a changed heart, not just changed behaviour. It’s not about be gathering will-power, it’s about simply following God not so that He will love me more but because He is good and His ways are best.

I want to be filled with the right things- physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

So will you take this journey with me? Even though a large part of this blog will be practical in nature in regards to healthy eating and weight loss, I want to explore what it means to live a life that is filled with the right, pure things. Every area of our lives in interconnected. Our thoughts and the things we do directly affect one another. Each of our battles may look different but regardless of what they look like, we all face them.

I’m hoping this blog will provide me with added accountability and added purpose.  I love to write and it is an area I want to grow in. I work through things best when I write about them. I was talking to a friend about losing weight and she really encouraged me to try new, different things.  I’ve tried many other things to try to change my eating habits but a blog seemed like a good way to keep me motived and on track. Since this has been a main battle in my life, I’m coming to understand that it’s going to take lots of time, thought, and effort to overcome. But, I believe it will be worth it in the end!

Please feel free to share your favorite recipes, healthy eating tips and the things you are/have learned along the way. I have been blessed already by people in my life who have been so supportive in the planning of this blog. I hope this blog will be a place we can spur on and encourage one another in all areas of our lives!